My Story of Generational Cycle-Breaking, Reinvention, and Conscious Leadership
I used to refer to myself as a Reinvention Expert because I passionately believed in my ability to guide people to transform their lives and work through my “Reimagine-to-Reinvent™” coaching program.
As an Executive Coach, Conscious Leadership Advisor, and Business Growth Strategist with a background in clinical psychotherapy, I excelled (or so I thought) at coaching leaders, forging transformative programs for executives and organizations, and driving branding and business growth strategies for entrepreneurs.
But this is not where my story starts...
To truly understand my life today and the transformative healing I help create for leaders and businesses, I need to shed light on my own back story.
I grew up in a two-parent and loving household. However, on my maternal side, there was severe abuse for several generations of women ahead of me. There were periods of great wealth immediately followed by devastating financial loss.
My paternal side had generations of stifled voices, gender-role biases, financial scarcity mindsets, and tremendous fear and anxiety of stepping outside the family unit into the wider world.
Behind the facade of all my apparent success, I had to get real with myself. I wasn’t “reinventing” anything for myself….so how could I truly lead anyone else? I was personally and profoundly stuck in a constant state of inertia and self-imposed limitations in every area of my own life.
“Reinventing” became just another word for continually starting over from scratch after I allowed some form of chaos and destruction into my life. I was merely existing and completely neglected addressing any obstacles buried within my inner world.
I had no awareness of how generational wounds passed down through generations, coupled with my own life experiences were impacting my ability to manage my own finances or live a fully free and authentic life.
From the outside looking in, I looked the part. I projected an image of a life and career in perfect harmony, but the reality was anything but that. My outward appearance may have screamed success, but internally, I was on the brink of financial and personal ruin.
Here I was, orchestrating million-dollar compensation packages for my clients, while I was drowning in a sea of debt. At one point, my bank account showed a daunting $150,000 in the red. I had neglected my own financial well-being, blindly allowing my wealth to slip recklessly through my fingers like sand. I could not understand this cycle and why I was incapable of holding onto the joy, wealth or abundance I was receiving in any area of my life.
My interpersonal relationships were dumpster fires. I had many friends and people that loved and looked out for me, but I was categorically incapable of making any relationship truly work.
I even became a runaway bride, having to call off my wedding at the last minute when my emotionally abusive, controlling and manipulative fiancé began veiled threats of violence.
As a result, I lost my house and was temporarily homeless… couch-surfing with generous family and friends. I still served and added value to my clients daily, but concealed the harsh reality from the outside world that I was frequently unsure of where I would sleep at night.
Eventually, I slowly started to rebuild and got my life back on track…. for a hot MINUTE.
Once I rebuilt everything and life was good again, the same cycle repeated over and over…for two more decades! Two steps forward then plummet ten steps down – in my life, work, finances, and relationships.
I was an expert at starting things but not getting over the finish line. It was baffling and I couldn’t quite grasp the root of the issue. It wasn’t merely a matter of taking action or lacking clarity in my purpose.
In fact, I was the hardest worker I knew; yet there was a deeper, subconscious force at play that perpetuated this cycle of “stuckness” in me. This triggered more guilt, shame, embarrassment, and unworthiness…. which made the cycle even more damaging.
WHY was I letting this happen – OVER and OVER?
The cherry on top was the undiagnosed and unaddressed eating disorder I suffered with for decades, that started raging out of control. I was on a steep and potentially extremely dangerous downward spiral.
One day, I yelled out loud to myself… “I have had ENOUGH”!
My entire life had been stuck in one big glass box, no matter which way I turned I was simply “stuck.” I needed a way out. I wanted to bring actual transformation and growth to my clients, but it needed to start with me.
I believed all that was needed was to create a new strategy, read more self-help books, or become more disciplined. I failed to recognize that my life had become a mix of triggers, burdens, and responses tied to issues often not meant for ME to bear, as well as unresolved personal wounds that needed acknowledgment and release.
I realized there was no way to lead others with compassion and empathy nor hold safe spaces for true transformation if I didn’t possess it in my own life.
Without addressing THIS issue, I was never going to fully “reinvent” myself or guide anyone else to do it in an authentic way.
In search of a solution, I began a quest to seek out the best teachers, put myself in psychologically safe spaces, learn the most effective modalities, and develop daily routines to integrate and bring harmony.
I allowed myself to become comfortable in the uncomfortableness of diving deep into my inner world to become a Conscious Self-Leader.
Eventually, other areas in my life started to become clear, and I gained true Self-Leadership. For example, I learned that my eating disorder was very much linked to the generational wounding I inherited surrounding sexual abuse. While it wasn't my personal experience, research indicates that around 70% of individuals with eating disorders have a history of sexual abuse or trauma. Although the abuse did not originate with me, it began manifesting as my eating disorder at the age of 10. This generational trauma carried down through my family's lineage, found expression in various aspects of my life, with the eating disorder being just one manifestation.
my mission today...
is to help executives, professional leaders, entrepreneurs, and individuals to break free from their limiting beliefs, generational cycles, and unprocessed adverse personal events to enable them to become conscious self-leaders of their own lives, organizations, and entrepreneurial ventures so they can leave a true legacy!
If you're tired and ready to break the cycle you've been continually repeating and become a truly conscious leader, book a call today! I can't wait to work with you.
What you really want to know is… am I any good? What makes me qualified to say these things?
Excuse me for a minute while I indulge in a little self-praise, but I've got to tell you—I've got a knack for reinvention, and I'm not afraid to say it! My clients can vouch for this, too. Together, we've reimagined businesses and reshaped careers, and I'm ready to help you do the same. I combine various modalities and create supportive containers to foster growth and transformation. I'm thrilled to bring this tried-and-true framework and system to you, so you can break free from cycles of inertia and get unstuck in the areas that impact your self-leadership.
What you want to ask me is…. What do I actually do and how do I do it?:
I work with Individual Leaders, Entrepreneurs, and Corporate Executives who are ready to do the “inner work” of breaking cycles that will lead to exponential outer growth and success. Our work together will allow them and their businesses to reach their desired level of financial security and become impactful in their lives, families, organizations, communities, and the world. I get results for my clients because I have walked in their shoes, am constantly doing the deep work, and have created a holistic approach to transformation and re-creation. I am your one-stop shop for creating the work and freedom you seek.
What you really want to know is… am I any good? What makes me qualified to say these things?
Excuse me for a minute while I indulge in a little self-praise, but I've got to tell you—I've got a knack for reinvention, and I'm not afraid to say it! My clients can vouch for this, too. Together, we've reimagined businesses and reshaped careers, and I'm ready to help you do the same. I combine various modalities and create supportive containers to foster growth and transformation. I'm thrilled to bring this tried-and-true framework and system to you, so you can break free from cycles of inertia and get unstuck in the areas that impact your self-leadership.
What you want to ask me is…. What do I actually do and how do I do it?:
I work with Individual Leaders, Entrepreneurs, and Corporate Executives who are ready to do the “inner work” of breaking cycles that will lead to exponential outer growth and success. Our work together will allow them and their businesses to reach their desired level of financial security and become impactful in their lives, families, organizations, communities, and the world. I get results for my clients because I have walked in their shoes, am constantly doing the deep work, and have created a holistic approach to transformation and re-creation. I am your one-stop shop for creating the work and freedom you seek.
my mission
I work with Individuals Leaders, Entrepreneurs and Corporate Executives who have a desire to increase their own awareness and self-leadership by going deep inward to determine how they can become true Conscious Leaders. I work with true game-changers who are changing cultures, creating new positive movements, and who are not shy about being courageous and vulnerable when doing their own inner work. I work with mission-driven leaders who are built to impact the “triple bottom line” of people, profits, and the planet.
my vision
To serve and support 1000 Individuals, Entrepreneurs, and Corporate Executives and help them unburden any blockages so they become true Conscious Leaders and wealth creators and deliver their unique gifts to the world in an exponential fashion.
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